“You could break my heart in two
But when it heals, it beats for you
I know it’s forward but it’s true“
I had a whole post planned out for today and it just doesn’t feel right anymore. I have no idea what to even use this for, other than making sure that I get something up here. My last post was so different that any other post I’ve done before. I started an Amazon Affiliate store to earn a little bit of passive income. Feel free to click it and support – I’ll be adding random things to it over the coming days.
Decided to take the summer off of College, looking for a second job, trying to do things here that will allow me to get my stuff caught up. I’m so tired of being behind. Planning a trip to South Carolina soon. Maybe. I don’t know. I am so tired. I am also trying to plan a trip in July – I want to go and do something fun and in the mountains. I want to relax enough to be happy for longer than a few moments.
I am tired of numerous doctors appointments every week, I am tired of all the running around, I am tired of the pain that comes on a daily basis. It’s gotten better since the accident, so obviously the therapy is working, but I am just so over being so busy. Why is everything so busy?
Dreams like my last post have been happening more often and I am very appreciative of them. Getting away from the nightmares that typically frequent my nights has been refreshing. These dreams leave me with a longing so bad I can’t breathe though. What I’d give to find anyone who could quiet my mind like that again, who could make me feel safe and secure just by being around in any capacity. Someone who made me feel like I was enough without even trying.
For the moment, I am going to just continue reading on breaks at work and before bed. I enjoy my little miniature vacations. I just need a real one.
“I wanna hold you when I’m not supposed to
When I’m lying close to someone else
You’re stuck in my head and I can’t get you out of it
If I could do it all again
I know I’d go back to you“