‘Today, I woke up in a good mood for once
First time in six months, I don’t hate you as much
You weren’t there in my dreams, I could finally sleep
I felt good, but it sucks, I don’t hate you as much
It’s easier holdin’ a grudge (Grudge)
I’d rather be angry than crushed (Crushed)
I’m doin’ too much (I do too much)’
I’ve been writing more with the Intent to publish. There are scenes that don’t fit in to either of the two rough drafts I have going right now and those I’ve put here. They are spicy compare to what the other books will be. I need to get them out, but I don’t have any plans to continue the story past where it currently is. To be honest, it’s just been a reoccurring dream and I’ve written all I’ve seen and I don’t think it’s going to return.
I’ve been really down the past few weeks and I’m working on fixing that. I’ve been doing CBT and only hanging out with the people I trust and enjoy. I’ve also been writing. A lot. Sorry the last post here was rated r. I am attempting to see if I can get rid of the dreams by getting them out of my mind and on paper. Last night, it seems to have worked. I didn’t sleep well though.
I made breakfast today! First time in a while. Avocado toast. Going to make myself eat lunch today. Going to slowly get back from one meal a day to three meals a day. Do you have any meal suggestions? I could use some. Easy, lazy food to make please. lol I don’t know what else to say, I just wanted a break from … the fiction that was posted yesterday and a few weeks back. A cleanser, so to speak.
‘I get so sick of myself
Can’t stop overthinkin’
I heard you’re happy somewhere else
But I don’t forget too well’